Daily Archives: May 24, 2012

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I’ve discovered I’m Boring


I’ve observed my youtube and i noticed I don’t get nearly the amount of views I used to when I was ranking them in right before I got pregnant. I am starting to think it’s because I’ve become boring and then I realized I kept having blasts from the past and have removed my videos over and over and people are probably tired of it. Pfft

Well if you would stop finding me PEOPLE I wouldn’t have to delete now would I?

You think people would understand, well no, I can’t expect viewers to because they just want something to watch and if I’m not reliable with video posting and them having a favorite video and it staying in their stash then why would they continue to watch me. Well because you have to like an addiction, you have to watch me. You must or you will die.

Yea, um no. The fact is I’m a way better writer than I am a vlogger and entertainer because my hearts more in writing and I am myself when I write. I’m most comfortable when no one sees me and I’m hidden behind these words here. I can’t fully express myself in voice or video because I concentrate too much on what people will think if I say this or that instead of just doing like I do when I write. It’s hard to explain.

I know exactly why my videos don’t get the hits they would if my blogs became vlogs, but they can’t, because I just cant change who I am. Well I can grow and become evolved but I can’t just say, hey today I’m going to be like this and do it. I’m not that great of an actress. come on. Okay maybe I am, but I don’t wanna play.

I am enjoying what I do and if no one wants to enjoy it with me, so be it, you pumpkin head popsicle rolls. you don’t have to, go watch someone more interesting that swears. I notice that. Lots of swearing going on in popular vlogs. I can’t imagine me swearing to get popular, okay I can because I have a vivid imagination but the image of it kind of frightens me because I don’t swear in my every day life, it’s just not who I am. When I do randomly swear on occasion people stare at me like they’ve seen a ghost. I guess it’s just that rare and unsettling coming out of my mouth. I’m too pure.. Holy water holy water

Okay so, I’m boring. I accept it. I’m a boring vlogger, video person right now and I have no energy to be upbeat because I’m pregnant and tired.

Give me a peanut.

By the way thats my new way of saying give me a break. it’s cooler, you should use it to. It will make me happy, but either way I’m happy with my just using it. its mine, its mine.

Muah hahahahaha

Okay its late and I’m still up and I’m typing, why does this always happen to me. I stay up doing something when i’m half asleep and want to sleep in my nice cosy bed but dread the having to get up and change, brush my teeth and go to bed. I’m so freakin lazy damn it.

Have a good night.

 

 

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My Belly Wont Stay In My Shirt


I have so many shirts, yet every shirt I put on ends up rising above my belly button because my belly sticks our farther now and my shirts have become too small to hold it in. It’s funny but also irritating when I have to go out and I most certainly don’t want my belly sticking out because people just think I’m fat and don’t think I’m pregnant. They see Niki and think I’m still carrying pregnancy weight. Crazy ass people, yah sure. I’ve got that much jelly floating in my front from Niki.

Give me a peanut.

Oh man, I really feel like ice cream and I don’t have any, isn’t that lame.

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Swimming can be Funny to


Today I took Niki swimming with me, we try to go every week as an activity to do together and it was so funny. He and I had lots of fun and I got to wear my new bathing suit which I love and Niki wore his swim suit that I was missing but found. I have a floaty that Niki sits in and then it goes around my waist to so I can float with him which is so cool and makes it so I can enjoy the water to.

So after a while of being in the floaty I always take Niki out and hold him and let him kick his legs and do back floats and stuff and he kept his legs in a sitting position wich made me laugh my ass off because it was like he was riding in a car while in the water and he was rolling his lips like motor boating at the same time and it cracked me up. he’s so funny.

“How are you suppose to swim like that, you’ll just float to the bottom and sit there if you do that.” I said to him. hahaha

What a funny little guy.

We had lots of fun and then when we finished and were in the shower/dressing room, we shower first to wash off the chlorine and Niki was crawling around like a crab really fast making me laugh so hard. He’s so silly. Also forgot to mention in the water when he was out of the floaty I danced with him in the pool and he started cracking up laughing. What a cutie.

:) I love when he’s a happy little guy it makes me so happy.

 

After we finished and were walking home I had my hood on with my jacket because my hair is soaked and there’s a bit of a breeze out side, it’s warm but still and these girls stared at me and I swear they were making fun of me cause I had a hood on and I felt like saying to them be-otches,

“Hey! have you ever had meningitis in your ear before? It kills like a mother you know and you can die from it and it happens from having wet hair in cold weather or cold wind and I’m just protecting myself. So stop your pedestal preaching and get down from that high cloud you think your riding on and stop hating on careful people who don’t want to catch dah meningitis.”

Yah… that about covers it.

I hate people who stare and tease or talk behind people’s backs like their better. Really irritates me.

 

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Humans fear Gummie Bears


As strange as it sounds its true. After posting my first gummie bear video which was a video response to a wood workers video for a contest it had gotten over 1,000 views which I mentioned if it reached a 1,000 I would make another which I did. So now it’s up and no one is watching my videos and my video has been removed from the contest. “What gives”

Afraid of a little competition or they all scared of the small yummy gummie bears. Perhaps its the very fact that I am an immortal and their afraid to watch, what ever the reason it occurred after this gummie bear collection. Humans I will never understand.

Gummie bears are good i swear.

 

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